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Dan from high school died today. I want to call him a friend, but I don't know if he would've liked that. I do know that I liked him as a person. He's lifestyle was something I normally wouldn't want people I like to get involved with, but he was still a pretty decent guy. He was in middle school with me, and unlike most of the white, kinda rich, guy population--I can't recall him every making fun of me. And I'm pretty sure he was friends with Anthony at one time... It's kinda sad that one of the last memories I have of him is him puking on the front lawn at one of the last shows in Nutley. I don't know if Karen found out about it yet. She loved him as a friend too. They went to the Prom together and looked so adorably misfitted together. And Ulkie 'lica liked him. She called him windmill boy or something because at the shows, when he would take some things to 'really' get into the music, he would do windmill's in the pit. I was thinking about him today, after Andrea told me and I was kinda crying as I walked to my car to put my shit away... Fuck, it's just really fucking terrible. I can remember him sitting next to me in gym class (during one of the years when it was a really bad class for me) and Leander walked in and slapped him five and gave me a hug, and then Dan was like; "I love that guy!" and Lee, in his high-pitched Snoopy voice on crack said; "I love you too, Dan!"

Needless to say, RIP Dan.

"Only the good die young." --- Billy Joel.